Accidental Finding

I have two weeks left in Kota Kinabalu.

Nothing to do.

Simply wasting my life as time goes by.

There i was,scrolling Facebook.
Again.
At the same time, having multi-tabs.
Saddening, huh?
I came across a news feed. A couple had broke up.
They had been together for years. They were those celebrity couple in a school.

I was also clearing up my Email.
hooooo MAI GOID!
soo many junk mails. =__="
Why not to clear since i have soo many time??

Clearing and Organizing my Email.
Such a great way to spend the holiday.
Now here comes the whole point of this post.
I now understand why we broke up. LOL

After 3years. I finally understood.
That year(s) after we broke up, i admit that i wasn't ready to let go.
Drifted by the Sadness, Betrayal and Abandonment, I was blinded by my emotions.
It was like being given up on,by the person you trust and loved the most.
Side note, it was my first time to have such a massive breakdown.

As i was saying,
I couldn't really remember what was the cause of the break up. 'Cause after all, who could have still remain sane at times like this?

People did ask. I couldn't be sure of what to answer.
And after 1-2months, the other party got in a relationship with another girl.
The intruder was there all the while. Impinged.
I didn't sense anything was wrong in our relationship.
Thus, it was all logical. I was dumped.
I blamed everything on her, on him, on them.
Nevertheless, on the distance and time.

But now to see things clear, who was i to blame?
who was i to judge?
Our relationship, was masked. 
There were alot of things and details that was masked.
A healthy relationship wasn't to be like this. Things started to get out of hand and started to crumble.
Just that, things crashed at the timing where it left me in pure agony.

Now i have understood. And had already let go.
All the hatred, All the negativity.
But to accept and move on.
Such a relief!

With my life now.
To be just by one's side,
that's what this is all about.
Cheers! =)