pissed.

Am I the only fool in the world?
I must be.
I have given must biggest effort to manage my lifestyle as same as yours.
I dont blame you for not seeing or approving or even bear that in mind.

The matter is,
I couldn't even get a sincere apology.
Fml. Good deeds that never been appreciated.

I have to accept the fact that this is who you are.
People around you isn't that important.
I have to not put much hope and anticipation towards your action.
I have to not put hope and anticipation into your thoughts.

Instead, more hope and anticipation should be raised into the excuses that comes out.
After all, i could still have enlightment by which excuses had i foresee.
I could at least, enjoy a little role of being a fortune teller or somewhat a future seeker.

I have to. I have to.
I should be like this in the future with you.
Even though, i don't want to.

Sucks.